Lyrics

Security

She’s looking down from a ladder she’s been climbing for years
Through youth and love and heartbreak, through blood and sweat and tears.
She’s got a great big house and she’s popular in bars
Got a kid in med school and she drives expensive cars.

She’s been falling up that ladder since God knows fucking when
And the ulcer in her stomach is acting up again
She could tell you the price of everything she owns
And what she tips the college boys who come when she’s alone

And she wonders and I wonder What went wrong?
Integrity turned tragedy
Screaming for security.

She counted out her pennies and tossed them in a box.
Dropped the box in the ocean, drank her face off at the docks.
Kicked around the harbour all night long.
Looking out on how to get back to the place where she belongs

And she wonders and I wonder What went wrong?
Integrity turned tragedy
Screaming for security.

She’s got her eyes on the stars and she’s screaming on her knees.
Asking someone something, asking anyone please.
She’s got a bottle in her left hand and a pistol in her right
But whomever it is she’s asking can’t help
Can’t help her tonight

And she wonders and I wonder What went wrong?
Integrity turned tragedy
Screaming for security.

We are born into a world where progressive alienation is a false marker of success. We struggle to the point of almost killing ourselves so that we can be free of one of the very things that makes us human - our need for each other. Fetishes are used as stand-ins for human interactions and in a consumerist society we drive ourselves to madness collecting objects to replace every lost interaction, every missing love. When we achieve our every desire, we keep reaching out, insatiably looking for more. We obsess over that last missing thing and unless we realize that what we were looking for is something that doesn’t exist, we can never be satisfied. There will always be that yearning for the impossible - security.

(Spencer Jo)